1st day as a 4th year- ME 4th year?? no way...cant grasp it yet

Guys, I wish I could post some party pics or something exciting...instead I will tell you about my first day back at uni. I feel so not ready for this. I dont think my head is working yet, I have had such a busy mind for quite a while, wake up a million times during the night, get distracted so easily and simply cannot really concentrate. Perfect conditions for this....NOT.

Anyway, so we had this introductory lecture this morning and most people were quite pale and not very talkative after we left. These 3 weeks of standardized patients (SPs) at uni will be the most intense time of the entire course. Roweena, our lecturer-mum, is like "guys, this will be tough time, probably the biggest challenge you have to face. Graduates even think that the 3 weeks of SPs were the hardest thing ever. It will be stressfull, you will be exhausted, there will be breakdowns, brain freezes, tears, frustration, dead ends and people not wanting to come back anymore....BUT....PLEASE...always sleep over it, the next day will always get better, make sure you have someone who looks after you, look after yourself and make sure to deal with the stress and pressure and dont let it bottle up...." Then, obviously, we cannot fail ANYTHING, the beauty about this course, every piece of assessment needs to be passed in order to progress. At some stage I was thinking "please, just stop talking, NOW!"

Should I let that scare me? NOPE! They tried to scare us a few times but I try to not that push me down. I know I could be prepared heaps better but I feel that i was able to bullshit my way thru a lot of stuff so why not now....we probably do know a fair bit, its just being nervous, that will go away. Ohoh I hope my strategy of "just" staying calm, breath properly when u think u dont know anything (as usual, no time for thinking, cos everything is ON THE SPOT) and it will just come to you. Im confident....uhm....trying to be :)

Right now, i have an hour break until we start with the first division, for me cardio-respiratory. We will get our first case. So this type of teaching with the SPs implies paid actors that simulate a patient. Today we start with 5 ppl in a group and one patient, tomorrow 3 and by wednesday its one on one. We will get thru 7 cases this week, thats huge. So we do that all day, 8-5 pm, then have to fill out the workbook for that case ie lots of clinical reasoning questions etc, then have to prepare for the next case(s) and ideally also keep revising cos we will never know enough. Thanks! Well, I skip the stress of the first night and go to work. And now I will cram as much information in my head as possible.

Dear friends, keep your phones on to receive a call from a frustrated crying anna "I wanna go hooooooooooooome, i cant do this anymore" Well, no, I am confident I will be fine, gotta be, as it has been the last 3 years, failing is just not an option, easy as =) I do think I will cry at some stage tho, but thats acceptable as every lecturer keeps telling us. Its just a normal progress towards being a full time professional dealing with people problems. What I am real scared of, is, getting attached to patients, especially kids with terminal diseases....oh lord....but we will have a few lectures on how to cope with that soon. Ok enough of bla bla, I really have to study now, lol, half an hour before we start....thumbs up anna banana ;) I will keep u posted! Wish me good luck please, i sooo need it.

that just made me feel..well...not too confident...

just at uni reading objectives and expectations so i can tailor my study but the painful truth is...we gotta know freaking EVERYTHING. ok i better start now. Have my first standardized patient rotation on monday for cardio respiratory. so we are in groups of five, get a patient (actor) and we will be allocated to do a certain part of the whole assessment and treatment .... oh dear god....im startin to getting scared. thank god im playing beach volleyball all weekend and have a massive bday on saturday so i cant think about it LOL maybe i should be studying....hm....thats what im supposed to do right now...hm...im kinda in a dilemma. oh well, i just hope i remember stuff, ay. ok talk later ppl if im still alive :)

and the following is only for one tiny little part of everything, ie one subject out of MANY....*schluck*

1.4. Aims/Objectives of the hospital stream of PHTY4301

By the end of the hospital stream in PHTY7881, students will be able to:

• Gather and interpret appropriate information from patients, medical records and bed charts in a timely manner
• Interpret common investigations, such as chest X-rays, spirometry, arterial blood gases and electrocardiograms
• Communicate effectively in both oral and written form with members of the health care team, including patients/clients and their carers
• Demonstrate competent assessment and treatment skills in the area of cardiorespiratory physiotherapy, including mobilisation of a surgical patient
• Demonstrate the ability to apply a range of clinically appropriate outcome measures
• Demonstrate sound clinical reasoning skills and integrate information gained from the case history and physical examination to develop an appropriate treatment plan
• Demonstrate sound manual handling of unwell patients
• Demonstrate a process for making ethical decisions in a range of challenging circumstances
• Demonstrate an awareness of appropriate professional conduct
• Demonstrate understanding of the holistic assessment and treatment of a range of patients/clients
• Select appropriate manual handling techniques and apply them safely and proficiently

Heiss

Halli Hallo,
wollte nur mal schnell ein Lebenszeichen von mir geben. Mir gehts echt gut, bin sehr gluecklich wieder hier zu sein, was nicht heissen soll, dass ich euch nicht vermisse, denn das tue ich - selbstverfreilich- alles laeuft, einige Huerden sind zwar zu ueberwinden, naja ihr wisst schon, dass zerrt schon noch an mir aber HEADS HIGH, das wird auch wieder besser. Wetter ist spitze, ich geniesse die Sonne, die Sommerlaune, das Unbeschwerte der Australier, meine Freunde, die Arbeit und nicht zu vergessen, Beachvolleyball am Strand. Hab komplettes letztes We gespielt, war spitzenmegaklasse, bis auf...wiedermal....aber ich habs ueberlebt und ich sehe es so IF IT DOESNT KILL U, IT MAKES U STRONGER und das stimmt! So ich bin nur schnell in der Uni und will mich auch gar nicht laenger hier im Net aufhalten wollte nur Bescheid geben dass ANNAROO gut bei den ROOS angekommen ist. Wir haben momentan noch kein Internet daheim aber ich versuche so viel wie moeglich upzudaten sobald wir es haben wobei am Montag Uni losgeht, und zwar 3 Wochen revision und am 03.03.2010 ist dann das MEGA EXAM *schauder* und ich sollte eigentlich echt ununterbrochen lernen aber 1,5 Stunden practice haben mir schon gelangt heute. Ich vertraue einfach, dass es wieder zurueckkommt ganz schnell und da ich alles schonmal verstanden habe, sollte ich durch Nachdenken schon auf die concepts kommen, naja das ist so meine Theorie mit der ich mich momentan vom Lernen druecke und stattdessen trainier oder eben comps spiele und mit Freunden rumhaenge, haha. Naja wird scho. Drueck euch alle ganz doll. Und nicht boese sein wenn ich mich nicht melde aber hab wie gesagt kaum Internet und hab, wenn ich dann online bin, endviel zum organisieren mit Uni und placements und dem ganzen tralalala. Allerliebst, eure annaroo

Seoul

Train to Frankfurt was sooo full so that i had to stand in the connection thingos (oh ja anna, wheres the english huh?) but cld sit on the stairs for second part so that wasnt too bed. flight from frankfurt to seoul was smooth, watched three movies: love happens (sure thing...), the burning plain and Im Winter ein Jahr...and ate bimbimbap for dinner and green tea rice porridge for breaky, prefer the german breakfast :) so its all going good, i do like the travelling, always amazed about jumping the continents, leave on world and walk thru the stargate into a total different one within a day, cross half of the globe, i like that. ok hanging out on the internet for a little, try and sleep, find some more yummy korean food and then i will already be on the plane again. talk to you later, everyone!

Christkindlsmarkt mit der Familie

Glühwein hat einigermaßen geholfen an dem Abend, denn es war bitter bitter kalt. Wir sind dann nach ein "paar" :-P Getränken auf ein Konzert in einer Kirche gegangen (super Akustik) und danach war ich so durchgefroren wie noch nie in meinem Leben...da hat das Laufen sogar weh getan und meine Nase hab ich jeden Moment abbrechen gesehen... ich habs überlebt.

Der Kampf ums Käsefondue, sehr lecker

Ohhh ich vermiss die Glühwein- und Weihnachtszeit jetzt schon...obwohl ich hab ja noch ne Flasche in der Küche...also ich bin dann mal weg, haha

'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.'

When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.

'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'

Abi Klassentreffen im Sausa

Yummy mexican meals interestingly served ohoh...cocktail happy hour...

sara and ludwig. Kudos to you guys for all that studying. Good luck for your state examination (?) You will do great!!!

Phillipp me and Schnulli (he's the guy behind the "zeitgeistcynic")

My little monsters

Leonie Anna being defeated, Max Kim being the winner, my sister Bianca and me on the world's best sofa =)

They never become tired....I love kids but I dont think I could handle them 24/7 yet ;)

Leonie was soo cute the other day:
"So why are u in `stralia?"
"I have to go to uni and learn for my future job"
"U know what aunty Anna, I personally like Australia a lot too, for holidays and stuff BUT i think schools and universities are NOT nice over there. U should be doing it here. I dont want that u go away!"
u should have heard her, how she said it...*seufz*
"And aunty anna, are u long with us in Deuschland this time?"
"Yes it is a fair while"
"And next time when u come, can u stay soooo long?" making the gesture with her arms
"I will try and maybe I will be here for long"
"ok, then you have to stay one million hundred thousand days" Leonie can count to 20 so far so I think she wants me to stay. These things make your heart melt....

Schneeeee

I have been so lucky this year with the weather, we have had snow for quite a while now and i wish I was a child again, go sleighriding, roll around in the snow, make snow angels (with the face down...well i was hot...) hm, if i think about it, my 23 years are not stopping me.....yiiihaaaa....but my ankle :( so then i have to say im happy that im older cos a simple walk thru the snow and sugar coated forests satisfies me, too.

if it continues like it does, I will go from SNOW to HEAT....could be interesting.

Happy birthday Mama

Standing proud upon a shelf
A photograph I see
The image of my mother’s face
Smiling back at me
Just a faded photograph
I look at every day
But if those lips could speak
I know exactly what they’d say

“ Now’s the time to pack away
The sorrow and the pain
I’ve had my life you must live yours
It’s time to smile again
Place the hurtful things that happened
Firmly in the past
And make the happy times we shared
The memories that last
But take a moment now and then
To think of me a while
Hold my faded photograph
And don’t forget to smile.”

U will never be forgotten!

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Der Zeitgeistcynic
witzige Berichte über Alltägliches und Aktuelles.

The A-Team

perfect plan. Chrissi (to the left) and me drove to Stuttgart to Co's place (right) on Sunday morning and had a big breaky (thanks to Co again, it was delicious) and big girl's catch up. We went to the christmas markets, went out for lunch, checked out the city and were finally united again. The rest of the week I stayed with Co because I organized a job, so that w came in really handy.

That was my crew for the week where I worked on the metal fair (super interesting stuff...not) in Stuttgart. We had to do service was pretty easy, the colleagues from our company were really friendly, too. And the best part was that I stayed with my best friend, Corinna, so I killed two birds with one stone: earning money and spending time with my Co.

Some thoughts of mine

I wish emotions would be logical.
You could just find a solution
solve them
have some sort of control
not only distract yourself
ignore it
play on
be strong
occasionally loose some tears
when the happenings of the day are passed
thoughts exposed to reality
you exposed to your thoughts
the clothes of your outer core stripped off
naked to your innerself
weak and sentimental falling asleep
true emotions finding their way out.
One day they must be exhausted
that's only logical.....

End of semester/3rd year-/theory pool celebrations

we are more than halfway thru our holidays and these pics dont fit the current situation with minus degrees and snow but it reminds me of good times so it must not miss

Poolparty at Matt's house. Our new house where Eva and me will move in will be even closer to Matt's ie the pool is closer too. Yeah =) Hellooooo we are here again, hehe..

i finally dared to took my camera underwater....good fun and it works :-O Soph and me

yeah right jared, rather save the beer than your head...

lol we both look like 12 year olds

half over half under water...getting tricky :) Matt and Jared

physio boys

me winning ;)

impressive

sara flying thru the air, love that pic, looks so athletic, doesnt it. and love my camera which takes motion shots and they are always so funny to look at. these are only the "nice" ones

hat birthday party

My brother Felix with a real indian turban and his girlfriend with my real Aussie hat

premier for "Jägerbombs" I tried to introduce them to our all time favourite. At that time they loved it....a bit later....hm maybe not sooo much anymore. I think I cite the slogan of Fishermans friends here: are they too strong, u are too weak- hihi.

i put on my blondie character, what a disguise, so inventive.

Felix's friends. I did have a hat initially, but the jägerbombs made everyone so cheerful that they thought they gotta try and swap with everyone cos its sooo cool to interchange sweat samples, me included. In my defence tho, it WAS fun ;)

there u go... blond or dark hair? hm still dont know

Kolo, the police officer of the night and the birthday child with this awesome idea of the "hat-motto"

The same procedure as last year, Miss Sophie?

"The same procedure as every year, James"


That just popped into my mind cos as every year, Papa and me baked christmas cookies

Snow for the cookies and snow for us too. Last week we had snow and down to -17° C, that was unreal

the endresult

we had the big "welcome meal" for the whole family on the same day as the cookie baking, the kitchen looked like after bomb attack (german saying)

A food lesson for u aussies, watch and learn :)

Kim, Felix, Andrea and myself about to start indulging this real frankonian (the region around nuremberg) meal.

voila, the perfect "schäufele with dumplings and savoy cabbage and gravy" looks massive, doesnt it? but still....mhmmmmmmmm. The dumplings are made of potatoes and have a piece of toasted bread inside. The cabbage is just cooked and blended. A meal full of softness, dont need to chew too much, haha.

The schäufele is the shoulder of the pig and its super tender, just comes off the bone like that and then there is the crust, aspect number 2 the schäufele is famous for: also really yummy. Not the best for your health but thats why it is something special, cant have it everyday. and then the whole "big thing" is finished with a very declicious gravy. hungry ;) ?

although we all nearly seemed to explode, we did manage dessert. everyone who knows Anna banana, knows there is no real meal without dessert, thats just not on =)

6th of Dec- St Nicholas

My sisters hubby to the left, and Max Kim and Leonie Anna, my nephew and niece+ godchild, they grew sooo much since last year.

Papa as "Nikolaus" and my brother Felix played the "Knecht Rupprecht" (his helper). We have the tradition that they come on the 6th of December. Good kids get presents and the naughty ones will be put into his big sack/bag. To please the Nikolaus the kids are supposed to tell him a little poem, play something on an instrument or sing a song. Felix and Papa came from the cold dark making lots of noise to my sister's house. There were 3 families with little kids and us Günkels. Was good fun espiecially the dressing up part with everything we could findd at home and the kids made biiiiig eyes :-O

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The popular Papa Frühstück

everything was there again on my first morning, Brezen, breadrolls, "sausages" and ham, cheese, jam, eggs, danishes, joghurt, fresh orange juice....and papa

HOME 2009 trainstation Nürnberg

Daddy and daughter finally united again....

Papa, Anna und Papa's partner Babs